20 days till he leaves ugh im so sad that i cant tell him i still love him and not in the way he thinks.. I cant tell him because he isnt aloud to date or have a gf wile on his mission..plus well he is dating my best friend, well she was my best friend till about june last year.. she hasnt tlked to me since then and it is killing me inside.. (Im not the kind of person to forget friendships, heck i still wonder how my best friends from preschool are doing and wish there were some way i could contact them if they even still remember me..) Oh and did i say she is only 15!! He is 19 for crying out loud!! Sure im not much older then her but well it just doesnt sound as bad me turning 17 and him barly being 19. It just hurts me to know i might not be able to get him back. But i also am glad he is happy and really thats all i want from him is to know he is happy. Not to mention im having some friend trubbles..
I dont in anyway think that astrology has anything to do with why my day is crapy and my emotoind are high but this is my horoscope for today and well its kinda good advice to any one when you feel upset or mad, which i am both.. "Don't take it personally -- okay, if you must then at least don't say the first thing that pops into your head. Your emotions are valid, but letting them spew might land you in some very avoidable hot water."
So my life is just not going good right now when it comes to love and friendship but hopefuly this weekend away with some of my friends will help me get things back on track.. I'll update you when i get home or something else crazy happens.. lets hope for both!! :) love, me <3
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